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I was in the toilet watching all the busy ants crawling all over the bathroom floor while listening to the mixed echoes of the usual ‘friday night atmosphere’ in the neighborhood where some tex mex blasts from the ’bailes’ (dance hall reunions) wherein people drink and sweat out a week of low-end jobs. Then Black Sabbath’s Paranoid mixes in coming from what I assume is a college party wherein the same actions are taking place: drinking, smoking, weeding out a dreadful school week.
Then I saw how this has become ‘the fun’ every single week wherein the usual hang over recedes the next day, soon enough to continue the following night following the same charade of reality evasion.
See, I cannot stand people being depressed but I cannot stand people desiring to be happy and fulfilled all the time either, because I see and realize that such seeking-depressing game is what’s sickening our reality to the verge of self destruction. We can be a lot more humane when being fully Here as our physical body, 5 senses, breathing, walking, LIVING wherein no positive or negative is sought, wherein no booze, sex and drugs are religiously bought to ‘make-up for’ an accepted and allowed self-deprecation of neglecting Life as who we really are. All that money, all that energy wasted - unacceptable and unnecessary.
We can be so much ‘more’ without seeking to be so through all of the above. It’s time to learn about what Living actually Is
“I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realise/understand, how – my very ‘physical-movement’ from/of the female physical-body womb, is/has been equal-to and one-with my initial manifested-singularity movement within/as existence when I initially emerged/manifested myself into/as a manifested-singularity within/as existence. Where, in my initial solid-standing as manifested-singularity, as manifested-separation that manifested friction/conflict as negative-energy experience to/towards existence/the whole as me as I conceptualized me as an individual separate from/of the whole – where that initial negative-energy experience was enough to accumulate into neutral energy-experience and positive-energy experience, as I was standing/remaining there in that one solid-standing position – the positive-energy experience of/as the MORE of me started lessening, to the neutral energy experience of/as only me and eventually experienced only the ‘lesser’ of/as me as negative-energy experience as the friction/conflict reverberation/ripples from/of the structure/formation of/as my manifested-singularity that manifested and was experienced within/as me. And as my awareness of/as me as Energy had already been defined within/as the MORE of/as me as positive-energy experience, I in/as my manifested-singularity moved myself to search/look for the experience of/as me within/as myself as the MORE of/as me as positive-energy experience. And as I MOVED through/as the motivation of/as the lesser experience of/as me as negative-energy experience to look/search for the more of/as me as positive-energy experience, the very movement generated/created more friction/conflict as negative-energy experience, accumulated the neutral energy experience into and as the positive-energy experience of/as MORE of/as me. And so, from that moment – the very movement of/as me as manifested-singularity was constant/continuous in/through the motivation of/as me - searching for/looking for the MORE of/as me as Energy within/as myself as positive energy-experience the moment I started experiencing either the neutral-energy experience of/as ‘only me’ and/or the negative-energy experience of/as the lesser of me.”
The Negative ALWAYS Move the Positive: DAY 25 by Sunette Spies
